youmakemesmile(:

2006-04-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

MOVED

020406

2006-04-02T02:20:00.000+08:00

edited the template. FINALLY! haha am quite happy with it. for now. shall go to bed already. (o.o)

2006-03-16T13:09:00.000+08:00

STOP FUCKING MY LIFE.

250206

2006-02-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

dont know how im feeling anymore. i guess im just being plain childish. but it really mattered to me. i must seem like an idiot. hehh.

suddenly reminded of this.
cutting causes bleeding.
bleeding causes mess.
mess causes cleaning up.
cutting cleans up my pain.

i'll think about it.

150206

2006-02-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Be strong and courageous.
Do not be terrified;
do not be discouraged,
for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9

150206

2006-02-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

had wanted to write about happier things today. such as being the statistics queen in class. why did everything have to change.?

nothing is ever your fault. NEVER. so who's fault is it then? mine.? if things are so useless to you. then why do you keep everything from us? all your shit is simply more important than my stuff. FINE.

and you. have i really let you down so much? i guess i did. im such a failure in your eyes. and i know you think that everyone else is much better than me. fuck. go on and shut me out. i know you probably gave up already. its okay. so did everybody else.

i dont believe that God made the world this way. i believe that it was all good. until i started screwing everything up. but did everything have to be unfair in the first place? maybe i just cant see.

its all going too fast. everything's probably going to repeat itself again. but i know i cant. because i dont want to disappoint you any further. i dont want you to give up as well. hies. i just want you by my side sooner. i miss you.

140206

2006-02-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

chest pains. breathing difficulties. sighs. ):

of all days. why did it have to be today?
will i ever do anything right.?

130206

2006-02-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

i feel like a total mess right now.

anyone free tomorrow? nah nvm.

i just dont feel good enough. sorry. just a random thought. please dont read too much into it.

im going nuts.

120206

2006-02-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

okay. im seriously screwing up my life. and i dont even know where to start. its just been a complete mess. i hate this. like totally.

i just want everything to stop so that i could start all over again. but i know the world wont wait for anyone. i guess i just have to run after it and hope that i'll make it.

terribly confused right now. basically. im just in a mess. HELP.

i miss you so bad right now. sighs.

2006-01-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

i guess it must have been me again. its all too confusing. i'd rather not think about it. i think.

190106

2006-01-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

i have a feeling that i'll end up sleeping really late tonight. too many things on my mind. too many things to be done. sighs.

im sorry i have to say this here. but still.

SAD F***.

2006-01-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

its all so confusing. im feeling all the strain and the stress.

she's breaking into pieces.

140106

2006-01-15T12:06:00.000+08:00

i guess im having one of my crazy moodswings once again. actually cried during dinner last night. can you believe it? sighs.

maybe its not such a big deal to you. since i was the one who contradicted myself. but it really mattered to me. you have no idea what it actually meant for me. oh well. nevermind. it was my own fault really. i'll just have to stop thinking about it.

im going to have to pick up the pieces pretty soon.

191205

2005-12-19T04:19:00.000+08:00

it hit me so bad that i cried immediately. can you imagine that. hahh. and the problem is that i cant stop thinking about it. sighs.

and i think i shouldnt have been so bloody demanding cos now i feel so bad. in fact. i feel terrible. i just want things the way they were . sighs. and i cant get to sleep either. argh.

you know something? she's absolutely terrified. but she just wants to be pampered more. she wants to feel like the one and only princess once again.

and you have no idea how much i miss you right now. i just hope you do too. i want to stop crying already. sighs.

221005

2005-10-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

went over to his house this afternoon to watch vcds. ended up watching the transporter. and yes. i watched the transporter 2 before watching the first one.

my computer's hangy. i cant sign in to msn because there's something wrong with the contact list. oh. and im short and fat too. hahh. im such a bloody whiner.

wonder whats wrong with me today. maybe..

can i go cry now.?

131005

2005-10-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

have been slacking for the past two days since almost everyone else is busy doing their project work. am bored out of my wits already. only remember returning home to sleep away all my time. sighs.

but at least there's this image creation workshop today to make things a wee bit better. and all she taught was how to be sexy without being revealing. hahh. oh well. not as though i'll use whatever was taught today. hmm.

and we got back our chemistry paper back today. i actually passed it. yay! lets just hope all these keeps up though. ((:

101005

2005-10-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

no school today because some poor souls are having their economics paper. gosh i sound so mean. hahh.

but anyways. met up with huishan to watch the myth. the show was good but the story was pretty ridiculous. some anti-gravity meteorite. people who can never grow old. and people who fly around. that was pretty much about it. but the actress is soo preeety! (:

and im still burnt. ):

081005

2005-10-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

okay. so i did wake up late this morning. but at least we werent that late when we reached harbourfront. hehh. had breakfast at the hawker centre before heading over to sentosa.

and guess what. it started to rain when we got to the beach. ended up playing in the rain. i know i wanted hugs since it was so cold. but.. oh well. the sun came out eventually. and now im quite burnt. going to have to wear racerbacks for quite awhile. hahh. (:

headed home to complete some stuff while a couple of them went for dinner. michelle and pak are going clubbing tonight at wisma and the rest of the guys are staying over at zhenyu's place. im becoming a loner already. oh well.

staying home's a pretty good thing too. hmm.

071005

2005-10-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

met up with classmates from 29/05 this afternoon. at least some of us are hanging out together pretty often. went to watch into the blue at cineleisure. and bryan totally has the hots for jessica alba. hahh. she's so HOT. :D

waited for pak to join us while we went for pool. then headed out for our stingray dinner. hahh. ended up going back to cineleisure for arcade.

guess i'll just have to leave things till tomorrow. then again. there's going to be a class outing at sentosa tomorrow. oh well.

get a grip.

061005

2005-10-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

the promotional exams are over. guess the same applies to me too. hurr. should have seen it coming. but its too late to do anything about it already. oh wells. i can only pray harder.

had last paper today. wasnt quite as excited about the end of it as i thought i would. and i got my ears pierced again. its the 6th one already. hurts more than the previous ones but im not going to complain. hehh.

guess i just made a big fuss out of nothing important.

280905

2005-09-28T10:17:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to youu! :D

200905

2005-09-21T03:57:00.000+08:00

cant believe im only going to bed right now. eyes are so going to look puffy. hehh.

nights everyone. oops. i meant good morning.

i guess i dont mean a shit.

180905

2005-09-18T02:50:00.000+08:00

went out in the morning to get breakfast before starting on some revision. there's so much to cover in such a short time. gosh.

instant noodles for dinner once again. i guess im going to die from msg overdose or something in the future. hahh. watched tv the whole night. the mexican was quite good i must say.

i seriously dont understand why you have to draw such a fine line between whats yours and whats mine. is it actually such a big deal to you. maybe then you shouldnt even use anything. simply because you dont pay a single cent for it. hurr.

and since you keep emphasizing on the fact that the house is yours (and yours alone), im just going to move out once i have the ability to. now. isnt that going to make you so pleased.

oh. and i just remembered. you didnt pay for the house. so is it still yours?

im so glad you called.

140905

2005-09-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

discussed about our service learning project during civics lesson today. and i guess the planning committee's going to have problems getting along right from the start. since yongsen and pak couldnt stop getting in each other's faces.

and i cant believe that i actually deleted the new songs that i had just downloaded. oh shucks.

its not so much about its feasibility. but more about how much effort you're willing to put into it. look. its definitely feasible. others have done it well before. so why the mentality that we cant.? anything is possible. as long as you set your heart and mind to do it.

it bugs me to see that its only a project that you want completed asap so that you can carry on with other stuff. i guess i see it differently. to me, its just more than that.

childish behaviour. overly dramatic and attention seeking. and you're the pot. calling the kettle black.

120905

2005-09-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

cabbed to school today to avoid being late. fancy being late on the first day of school. hahh. lessons were pretty much boring as usual. then went out for lunch with some classmates. noticed that its always the same few people hanging out together. hmm.

and i actually completed my work after i got home today. quite happy with myself. hahh.

you would never want to know why im upset. its too complicated for you. i dont believe that someone can be perfectly happy and not have a problem at that moment. its probably just pushed to the back of their mind. call me sadistic if you must.

and one thing to clarify. im not writing about the sad stuff so that you guys can come comfort me. im not here to attract attention alright. and i cant be bothered to care about what you think. think whatever you want. you wouldnt even understand if i told you about it. you live in your own happy world remember.?

and i guess there's nothing scary about self-mutilation.

290805

2005-08-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

havent been able to sleep well for the past few days. even woke up in the middle of the night to puke my guts out. and i still cant stop coughing. i feel like crap. oh man.

250805

2005-08-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

my neighbourhood has been labelled as a dengue hotspot. maybe i'll catch dengue too. hahh. cramps. sore throat. cough. i feel terrible. my cough makes my throat worse. in fact. i feel like SHIT right now.

210805

2005-08-21T07:32:00.000+08:00

guess all i want is to see you smile. please tkcare alright? i miss you. i hope you do too.

140805

2005-08-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

cant get back to sleep. not after doing what i did to you. feel so terrible about it. im so sorry about everything.

i know you're upset. you might think that im probably just trying to find an excuse or something. and there's nothing i can do about it.

dont know what to say anymore. argh. maybe im not good enough. i just dont treat you good enough. i feel so terrible upsetting you. confusing you.

030805

2005-08-03T18:19:00.000+08:00

she wants to stop his world from crashing down. she wants to be the one to keep it up. they'll build a place where only they belong. she's sure of that. she knows.

and she still has that old promise to keep. the only thing she wants. is for you to be happy with her.

your smile brightens up her life. stay happy. iloveyou.

love is trust. so trust. with all your heart.

310705

2005-07-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

love is patient, love is kind.
it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
it is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth.
it always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
love never fails.

[1 corinthians 13:4-8]

310705

2005-07-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

went to watch the school of rock competition at j8 today. managed to squeeze our way right to the front. all thanks to some lady with the haagen-daz ice-cream. hehh. was pretty alright i guess.

have been slacking around ever since. am too lazy to go attempt the tutorials. oh wells. guess im going to get started on it after this.

i wonder what made you react so strongly about it. it was almost as if you had something to hide. its probably nothing.

300705

2005-07-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

went town with huishan this afternoon. bought a pair of eeyore baby slippers. gosh. they're so adorable. i want my twins to wear slippers like those in the future. hahh. and we asked for our pink balloons! (:

talked to her about some stuff as well. then jerry came down to look for us. had intended on playing pool. but huishan had to go off earlier. anyways. thanks to huishan for everything! (:

bus-ed down to esplanade after that. but the jam at city hall was so bad that we decided to get there by foot. saw nel and fur in city link too. walked out to esplanade just in time to watch all the fireworks. so pretty! (:

it wasnt the jealousy. it was simply the fact that you got upset by what she said. maybe she should have just shut her trap.

she's been crying herself to sleep for a few nights already. she feels as if she's going to sink back into the depression. and no one bothers to help her up.

290705

2005-07-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

im so going to fail my physics timed practice. error all carried forward. sighs. and i broke the stupid table in the auditorium during chemistry lecture. oh no. was so darn embarassing. ):

went home early to prepare something today. then brought my books over to his place before heading to bugis together. what can i say. my plan failed. oh wells. at least now you know. and thanks for the presents too! (:

hmm. jc1 parent-teacher meeting this evening too. hope everything goes well. its time to pray hard.

how could you just push the blame onto others.? dont you get it. ITS SIMPLY ME. as simple as that. she failed to grow up into the person you want her to be. once again. just watch.

270705

2005-07-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

blood drive in school today! was so looking forward to donating blood already. but it just so happens that im not in shape to donate. oh wells.

shall see when i'll go by myself then. hehh. it just wasnt a good day. oh wells.

250705

2005-07-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

went out to meet him since school ended early for me. rest of the class had extra pw lessons. hahh. i love my mondays. (:

had intended to catch a show at causeway point. but ended up having lunch at seoul gardens. hahh. appetite's been good recently. too good in fact. oh wells. and was rather tired by the time we finished eating. so called kemmy's mum to cancel tuition.

at least i did some work. hehh.

230705

2005-07-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

went j8 with huishan, delphine and huimin to queue for tickets for some superstar party. decided to give up once we saw the crowd there. jerry came along after the phs carnival. ended up going town with him and huishan.

was quite fun i guess. ethan is simply so talented and adorable. i cant wait to have twins already! and i got a freebie while eating at cineleisure. long story. hehh. we had our share of fun. (:

she misses the simple things in life. the innocence. the joy. the laughter. feeling as if she cant trust anyone anymore. maybe she's too afraid.

all the hurt. its killing her from the inside. she's falling apart right in front of our very eyes and no one notices the cracks.

im a total emotional wreck. so laugh. i know you all cant wait to.

2005-07-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

played badminton for morning pe once again. lessons were pretty alright. just didnt really complete my gp assessment. oh wells. went out after school. kemmy's mum called to cancel tuition. ended up watching the island. quite an interesting show i guess.

weekend's coming. better do something more productive this time. lets pray. ((:

2005-07-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

nobody told me that i'd be in happy faces
trying to erase the traces
of what came before me.

the girl that i used to see
somewhere buried deep
she's fallen asleep and im trying to wake her
set her free

now is a never ending thing
one moment turns into another
before i've had time to run from all the other ones

and its so hard to live a dream
when the everything that they want you to be
is anything but me.

so much confusion
circling inside my head
what this one and that one said.

its all an illusion cause im still the same person
no matter how fast i run
and im trying to hold on to
where it is i've come from.

now is a never ending thing
one moment turns into another
before i've had time to run from all the other ones.

and its so hard to live a dream
when the everything that they want you to be
is anything but me.

2005-07-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

cut myself today. so i cant type properly already. and we got back our result slips also. am so dead. like im not screwed up already. hehh. teacher's comments were horrible. better buck up already. jiayou! (:

even people around me think the same way as me. dont know what i should say. its time to go for a break.

she's going to fall apart soon. wont that be a pretty sight.

2005-07-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

school was pretty alright. i actually completed my physics assessment way early today. something must have gone wrong then. hehh. afternoon pe was cancelled because of the rain. yay! (:

met friends from 20/04 at swensen's for a little pw celebration. even like after so long already. but it was fun with all of them. went to take neos with my pw group. aj 100! hahh. the ones we took were absolutely hilarious. oh wells. at least we had fun. i miss them so. ((:

2005-07-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

lessons were supposed to end at 1.35 today. but there was the chinese listening comprehension. so we were to end at 12.55. and guess what. physics tutorial was cancelled. so there i was. slacking around in school since 9.15am in the morning. in which i was only in school for two lectures. oh wells.

went out with him to catch the free movies at cineleisure. but tickets for fantastic four were all sold out. so decided to watch man on the house instead. didnt expect it to be really good. but it was. inspire and electrify! (:

tuition was cancelled too. it was a pretty good day. ((:

2005-07-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

went out to study with jeremy yesterday afternoon. at least i got started on my work. hahh. and played pool together after our studying. havent been playing since i dont know when. got quite distracted by some things as well. so i totally sucked. hahh. oh wells.

had dinner together before he came down from safra to look for me. things were simply awkward with the two of them. hmm.

and a happy belated birthday to huiping! (:

was too tired to drag myself to church this morning. maybe it was just the total lack of sleep this week. can you imagine falling asleep at five in the morning and having to wake up at seven. so there.

went over to his house to continue with all my late work. had dinner with his parents at night at some restaurant. hmm. lets not talk too much about it. hehh.

and happy birthday yushu! sorry i wasnt around to wish you that. =x

2005-07-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

skipped school yesterday because i had a feeling that it was going to be yet another dreadful day. hahh. im simply too lazy. so had to get an mc from the doctors. hmm. slacked around for the entire day once again.

someone told me something today. dont know what i should say. im flattered but not am jumping for joy. pretty awkward i guess. oh wells. shall see how things go.

didnt expect you to react so strongly about it. am so sorry. =x and hope you did alright for your orals anyways. (:

2005-07-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

went out with seokhwee and peijun after school this afternoon to watch fantastic four. the show was pretty good. and jessica alba is so pretty. oops. i mean. jennifer garner is still pretty! hahh. (:

had dinner with jingyuan before my tuition. he's an idiot i tell you. hmm. have been returning home pretty late almost everyday. i think im going to fall flat on my face soon. oh wells.

i hope you're alright. please take care of yourself yahh?

2005-07-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

got back chemistry paper yesterday. dont really want to think about it. way below my expectations. hahh. cant wait to see how badly i failed for the other papers already. oh wells.

she was simply too paranoid. that must have been it. but why did it seem to hurt so bad. she's lost her self-control. once again.

sorry

2005-07-05T19:56:00.000+08:00

i know you arent very happy with me right now. and im sorry for making you feel this way. but i would never say that. you mean too much for me to do anything like that. and you are the only one. thats for sure.

and i just want to say how bad i feel about it. i didnt make good on my promise ehh. but just remember what i said alright? (:

slashed

2005-07-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

was she simply too insecure. he would never do that. so why is she feeling the way she did. and you have to wonder why she did those things to herself. why she cried herself to sleep. and why she woke up wanting to cry.

it was just something written on the spur of the moment. dont make too much out of it alright? hahh.

went out with huishan today. am so going to drag you out to take neos at heerens already. and we had pizza hut for dinner. sort of. cabbed for tuition since i was running quite late. i seriously need sleep. and tomorrow's a long day. oh wells.

war of the world

2005-07-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

finally revamped my room on yesterday morning. am soo proud of it now. also went to watch war of the worlds. all i can say is. the effects are way better than the story. hehh.

and i went ikea this afternoon once again. cant wait to organise my stuff already. hahh.

physics paper

2005-06-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

physics paper wasnt too bad. considering the fact that i didnt finish studying. oh wells. at least its all over now. lets all bow our heads and pray for the best.

met up with him to watch initial d. was quite good. with all the eye-candies. hahh. thanks so much for everything. and hope you liked the present too. it was a good day.

and whats even better. long weekend ahead. ((:

chemistry paper

2005-06-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

first morning paper of the week. ended up late for school. what a great start. and chemistry paper was quite alright.? at least i attempted the paper. dont think i'll do well though. hehh.

went ikea with dad and bought a new study table. im going revamp my room after my mid-yrs! hahh.

am i simply too paranoid? i hope so. it must be the stress.

maths paper

2005-06-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning to do some last minute studying for maths paper. oh wells. i dont want to talk about it. think i did just enough to pass. and i bet half of what i attempted would be wrong. shall not worry too much about it since its a complete goner. hahh.

tried studying for chemistry. seemed to have read through everything but i dont understand anything. did it even make sense.? sighs.

gp paper

2005-06-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

"today's singaporean youths are too selfish and materialistic. discuss. "

that was the question i attempted for general paper today. mid-yrs have only just started and i have a really bad feeling about it. hehh. had to cancel tuition because i was asked to mug. oh wells. at least something came out of it.

lets hope tomorrow will be a good day for me.

-my prince-

2005-06-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

he'll always be the prince.

so i did try to study today. well. it worked to a certain extent. and so im back to slacking again. hahh. i need a miracle once more.

alright. so my sentences dont really link up. so what. they talk about different things ultimately. and its yufeng's birthday today! happy birthday! (:

-a lot like love-

2005-06-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to watch initial d at ps. but guess what. every single showtime they had were almost sold out. oh wells. flipped coins and decided to watch a lot like love instead. and the show was good. (:

was shopping halfway when kemmy's mum called to change the timing for the tuition class. and so i had to rush off after the movie over to yishun. saw charlotte on the bus. its been such a long time since i last met her already.

im soo sorry for leaving early and everything. i just feel so bad. ):

i finally got my pay already. (: then headed over to jerry's place to study. oh wells. that was the initial plan. ended up watching tv. hahh. seriously have to go for intensive mugging sessions for the next few days to come already. oh man. =x

dont feel bad about stuff already alright. im not blaming you for anything.

-swimming-

2005-06-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

finally cleaned up my room this morning! well. not actually. just stuffed everything away. im just plain lazy alright. oh wells.

went jurong swimming complex with huiqi, shuhui and karleng in the afternoon. basically went playing in the pools since i had some minor breathing problems. hehh. but we all had fun though.

and sorry for not accompanying you guys for dinner and pool alright? =x

before i forget. happy birthday to karleng! hope you enjoyed yourself with us! (:

-karleng's bday-

2005-06-22T11:46:00.000+08:00

woke up quite early this morning because of some stupid dream i had again. and i cleaned up my room. well. not actually. just stuffed everything away. im just plain lazy alright. oh wells.

meeting with huiqi later to go swimming with the class. hahh. because its karleng's birthday today! happy birthday girl! i didnt forget you alright? ((:

its been hurting since last night. ergh. ):

-batman-

2005-06-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

met up with seokhwee in the afternoon. had yoshinoya for lunch. then started to shop around town while waiting for peijun's lessons to end. and we couldnt find seokhwee's friend at isetan scotts. went to shop for her shoes. again. hahh.

went to watch batman begins after meeting up with peijun. the show was alright. and seokhwee was just acting weirdly in the theatre. took neos with them. acted like idiots. hahh. but we had fun right? ((: so sad that the others couldnt join us. oh wells.

went library and met chengyang there again. he's so hardworking. i feel so guilty. ):

im sorry for acting the way i did tonight. explained myself already. but actions prove louder than words. and thanks for bearing with me. really. i hope you understand. (: you're going to get all the love and care you should get. i promise. (:

-bbq-

2005-06-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

was late for church once again. i've got to buy myself a watch someday. hahh. everything was pretty alright. had so much fun during bible study. and everyone had such interesting memories. kissing teachers. food fight at proms. irritating jerks. and the horny jokes. (:

was late meeting jerry and his friends at suntec. im so sorry. =x slacked at derence's place. went to parkway to shop. started slacking once again. hehh. know i was acting quite cranky that night. so sorry once again. but there were just so many people i didnt know. oh wells.

took a shower before heading off to east coast park at night. started raining though. people at the shelter were simply too interesting. hahh. went for breakfast in the morning. breakfast was good. ((:

bus-ed back home once again. took a nap before going to the library to study. failure attempt. dinner was good. hahh. ((:

-swimming-

2005-06-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

had lunch with jerry before heading to safra. was just hanging around there while he did his lifeguard duty and had his lessons with the kids. and yes. i slacked the entire day away watching people swim in the swimming pool. hahh. and the kids were adorable. (:

went thomson plaza for dinner before heading home. been going home late all through this week. think my dad's going to slaughter me anytime soon. and i wont be home tomorrow. oh wells.

-jealousy-

2005-06-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

finally met up with chris this afternoon. and i cant believe everyone else couldnt make it. oh wells. started to slack around before heading off to play pool once again. hahh.

started crapping to each other at mos burger while waiting for jerry to come meet us. and we went back to play pool again. had dinner with jerry after chris left. and we bus-ed home together. (:

you shouldnt have felt that way but im quite glad you did. at least you cared. (:

-ghost train-

2005-06-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

was slacking at home yesterday morning since i had pretty much nothing better to do. oh wells. at least seokhwee asked me out after her pw meeting. dont think i've ever reached bishan in just 15 minutes. hehh. continued shopping for her shoes once again. and she bought herself an orange pencil case.

went home early since she was having dinner at home. and i went for the evening jog which i've been putting off for too long already. im soo proud of myself for running 3km! and i wasnt even feeling that tired. ((:

went for a jog once again this morning. delivered breakfast to his place. im so nice right. hahh. and found out that mdm lee stays just opposite him. what a small world. went home to change before meeting huishan in the afternoon.

watched ghost train at ps. became quite hilarious in the end. all because of the little girls sitting behind us. they couldnt stop kicking our seats before the show. and they couldnt stop screaming once the show started. ):

whats worse. they were screaming even before the ghost appeared. and they were desperately praying for the show to end even before we figured out what was going on. oh wells. wont comment on what i said at the cinema. hahh. played pool together before going off for dinner.

and i've got a swollen blister. great.

-series of unfortunate events-

2005-06-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

finally went to the doctor this morning about my cough. had to wait soo long once again. oh wells. watced a series of unfortunate events at his place. sunny's absolutely adorable. hahh.

then headed over to woodlands to meet up with jane. and i thought i was going to be late. hehh. happened to see seokhwee, lily and jiehau while i was waiting there. what a small world. (:

sat down at mos burger with jane. and saw huiling and huimin. huimin looks so cute i tell you. hahh. couldnt stop complaining about what i was feeling. you know i think too much dont you. both of us had dinner at pastamania and at yoshinoya. we simply pigged out. and i was still hungry after that. oh wells.

started shopping around causeway point before we bus-ed home. our hysterical laughter filled the bus we were in. think i'll get stomach muscles soon. at the rate we were laughing. hahh. it was pretty much a good day.

the court jester always makes the fat princess happy. ((:

i dont know what to say. just cant shake off the feeling that it was my fault. its precisely because of the years of friendship that im feeling like crap. you cant expect me not to say anything at all. should i simply just bottle it up then.

just feel that i cant make anyone around me happy. maybe im ultimately just a terrible person. im still going to make the effort anyways. someone stop me from thinking too much. im pretty messed up. oh wells.

just in case you didnt know. you made me feel better. im serious. so dont think too much alright.

-seoul garden-

2005-06-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

went to the library this afternoon. im actually doing my work alright. that makes me a good girl already. hahh. saw yenhao and his nj girlfriend in the library too. oh wells. managed to get a little studying done. (:

oh. and there was a bimbo lurking in the library too. hahh.

went seoul garden for dinner even though there were only the two of us. and so we sat there from till 9pm. four hours of eating. got to work out the extra fats already. oh wells. im just feeling crappy.

and i couldnt stop looking at the cute boy that keeps walking past our table with more and more food. (:

sorry girl

2005-06-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

to my good friend out there. im soo sorry for making you upset about it. its not that i didnt want to tell you. i just didnt know how to. didnt want to announce it. some people ask way too many questions. there was also another reason. sighs.

thanks for everything girl. you know me too well. and i feel like im such a meanie. we'll meet up soon and talk about it alright? hope everything's alright with you in the meantime. you know i miss you! (:

im bored out of my wits at home. shall try to do some work later on. oh wells. i'll probably see you after the weekend right? tkcare of yourself! (:

you make me smile

2005-06-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

thanks for the morning call. (:

i dont know why i even bother to try. it'll always be my fault. does it simply make you happy that im to blame for everything. you think im dumb. fine. i admit i am. dumb enough to even make an attempt to talk. its always me and my attitude. you're so perfect. ~~fuck it.~~

guessed my morning simply started off badly. walked in to school with karliang. and seeing their reaction didnt make it better. chemistry test started right after we got settled down. dont even know why i bothered to turn up for it. they used last year's paper for goodness sake. and sad to say. i failed the test. hurr.

met jerry in the afternoon. saw xun and her girlfriend when we went kfc for lunch. what a surprise. xun was just laughing and laughing the whole time. stop acting like an idiot alright. bahh.

but you were right. mr and mrs smith was good. so cool. hahh. went to play pool after our movie. at least i didnt get thrashed. and i couldnt stop staring at the 'cute guys' at the next table. (:

had pasta for dinner. table space was small. so we couldnt help but overhear what the trio had to say about wings. hmm. took neos too. and we took a bus back to amk since we had nothing to do again. did a whole lot of rubbish on the bus rides home. but we had fun.

y o u m a d e m e s m i l e. (:

church camp

2005-06-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

cabbed down to church once again this morning. even though i left house on time. simply got stuck in the morning rush. sighs.

the conference room we used was in the basement of the hotel.? felt like we hiding in the bomb shelter or something. hehh. played some ice-breakers. speaker then started on the first talk. was pretty concise. but i just felt like sleeping from my cough syrup overdose.

tea break was good. woke me up a little. hahh. second talk started not long after the break. and guess what. i fell asleep. damnit. feel so bad for that.

lunch came next. huimin broke my tortoise from the chain. great. and yuping was choking me while i piggy-backed her around. food was good once again. kiawoon and i simply pigged out. but still felt hungry. oh wells.

a list of what i pigged out on.
nasi lemak.
sashimi.
pasta.
baked salmon.
potatoes.
chocolate, fruit and mango cake.
two puddings.
fruit tarts.
and not forgetting the drinks.

managed to stay awake for the last talk. had some discussion after that. and since we finished earlier than everyone else. we started on our major crapping. had a mini water fight with yuping on the ride back to church. oh wells. it wasnt such a bad day afterall. (:

then went out to do my work. at least i tried to. ended up stoning and mooding by myself. im weird. hahh. and you actually came over after work today. thanks so much. made me feel better. and now i smell of chlorine too. hahh. hope you're feeling fine yourself too. (:

insecured.

2005-06-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

finally got to meet up with sam and huishan yesterday afternoon. its been quite awhile. hmm. bought yet another racer back top. dont ask why. i dont know either. hehh. took more neos again! hahh.

and jerry came to join us after his lessons. well. me and huishan's pool plan worked for awhile. and we watched the two guys thrash it out. jerry won. (:

kept losing every game though. darn. oh wells. walked all the way to plaza singapura and continued our shopping. sam saw his sister with this guy. hmm. cant believe you're actually going to tell on her. so mean. =x

took 167 to bukit merah. fell asleep halfway. oops. then took 132 from bukit merah back to amk. guess the two of us were just too plain bored. but we had fun. or rather. at least i had fun. hope you did too. (:

went to school in the morning for chemistry tutorial. was feeling rather cranky after three hours of chemistry. sighs. then headed over to toa payoh to meet him. had lunch. did some work. well. he did his work. i read through my notes for friday's test. hurr.

went over to j8 to buy something that i've been eyeing on for quite awhile. and decided to watch a movie. oh wells. cursed wasnt even scary in the first place. am home earlier than the last few days. shall go do something more productive later.

i guess i think too much. you probably think so too. but i cant help it. and i cant help feeling insecure. how will i know that you're not just going to run away. when so many people have already left me. and besides. everyone's better than me. right? shall not start to cry. at least not yet.

its probably just my moods. but. one thing i'll say. just stay by my side alright? hies. cant wait to see you already.

madagascar

2005-06-07T10:54:00.000+08:00

watched madagascar yesterday. gosh. its just so darn cute! even with the fact that there wasnt much of a story line behind it. oh wells. at least the company was good.

neos was fun. bought yet another racer back top. i seriously need other clothes to fill up my wardrobe already. hehh.

in case you didnt know already. you look really cute with that new shirt of yours. -grins- and it was so adorable that you sang over the phone. ((:

im happy. once again. ((:

wouldnt it be nice?

2005-06-06T10:15:00.000+08:00

wouldnt it be nice if the world was cadbury?
chocolate roads and trees and birds and bees
delivering all kinds of letters daily
every kind of purple parcel too

and if the dog did try and grab a mouth full
you can bite him back, he'll taste delightful
wouldnt it be nice

wouldnt it be nice if the world was cadbury?
you could surf inside a chocolate tube
ride your board across a wave forever
get wiped out and never get a bruise

and if a shark came up and tried to bite you
you could say 'im chocolate, i invite you'
wouldnt it be nice

wouldnt it be nice if the world was cadbury?
you could be a soccer super star
the referee would blow his chocolate whistle
a shot on goal would even break the bar

and if you went and scored the winner
you'd win the cup and eat it for dinner
wouldnt it be nice

wouldnt it be nice if the world was cadbury?
driving in the car would be a tasty treat
changing gear would soon become a problem
cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat

and when you arrive at your destination
you'll be greeted with an exclamation
wouldnt it be nice

alright. im just feeling too bored right now. hahh. shall be a good girl and do some work before i go out and watch madagascar! im missing you already. hmm.

class camp

2005-06-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

went east coast park on friday evening for the 20/04 camp. and to you. thanks for accompanying me all the way there alright? the bus ride home must have been long. =x

didnt eat anything even though class was still barbequeing when i got there. been quite awhile since i last saw them. hehh. went off with huiqi for awhile for the usual girl talk. i miss the times. oh wells. was learning how to ride the bicycle. alright. dont even start to laugh at me. bahh.

was just about to try blading when karleng wanted to try putting me on her bicycle. ended up getting my feet stuck at her bicycle wheel. hurr. cant walk! grrr. ended up not going changi village with the rest of them at night. was playing cards with fur and nel. then went along to send fur off. oh wells.

spent the rest of the night slacking away. chatting with jianguang and nel. the rest of them only came back at 6am in the morning. wonder how i managed to stay awake the whole night. well. most of the night anyways. hehh. helped to clean up since the guys were all too tired. went for breakfast with them before heading home. so shagged. am so not sleeping well enough. ):

met jerry in the evening for dinner and to also get some church stuff. thanks for accompanying me after your lessons! (:

cabbed down to church again this morning. i seriously need to get a watch or something. hehh. gave nicoleliz her soft toy. she was soo happy with it that we couldnt seperate her from it. hmm. had birthday celebration during our cell group. played charades. was quite hilarious. and we played the funniest things possible. hahh.

watched the exorcist at his place. think it was some funny version. so not scary at all. hurr. and dont make my hair stand alright? haha. (:

have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
i could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright.

delta experience

2005-06-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

just got back from delta experience. am quite shagged already. sighs. was basically a training camp for class leaders. hmm.

reported in school at eight in the morning. valuables were collected. had a three hour talk on conflict management. at least the speaker was entertaining. hmm. experential learning was like sooo fun. only played three games. but our group broke the record for the keypunch game! am so proud of my group! (:

sneaked over to the co camp at night to borrow seokhwee's phone. delta instructors lied to us. bahh. only found out on the first night that we couldnt get our phones back till the whole thing's over. oh wells. i missed my phone. and i missed you. ):

lights out pretty early that night. woke up at 4am in the morning due to the mosquito bites all over. ended up telling toad stories with gerry. hahh.

had intense physical training on the second morning. 5 rounds around the track followed by all the exercises. that was not all. since we were late for breakfast, we were told to run another 2 rounds. sent to run another 3 rounds because of some stupid things. hurr. was seriously shagged during breakfast. and co people were only just washing up. sighs.

helped to clean the toilets and the canteen while the other groups left school for their service learning project. went macs for lunch. and so sorry for disturbing ehh. forgot you had your lessons. hmm. then headed over to yishun cdac. was quite interesting i guess.

went back school in the evening for dinner. finally having the appetite to eat already. hahh. and had movie screening of k-19. then it was finally time for our night walk to pierce reservoir. was doing all sorts of stupid things during the journey. hahh.

at least there was supper after the walk. ran to bathe before our lights out. hurr. and we stayed up to complete our service learning proposal. fell asleep halfway through it. sorry guys! =x

ran 3 rounds before i started feeling sick. hehh. didnt eat my breakfast. went to finish off the service learning proposal. and i didnt forget about you alright? -grins-

and we had our proposal presentation. think out project wasnt too bad. hahh. finally had the final closing ceremony. got our camp shirts and took photos. most importantly, we got out valuables back! hahh.

am going for class camp pretty soon. oh wells. im feeling so shagged already. ):

((:

2005-05-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

met up with huishan and delphine yesterday afternoon. its been like two months since i last saw them? i miss them! hahh.

shopped around for quite awhile before the movie. delphine left early. so ended up watching monster-in-law with huishan. typical romance comedy. oh wells. headed over to paradiz for pool. dinner was good.

and to huishan. must meet up soon yahh? oh. and before i forget. must ask sam out too. ((:

went to watch starwars with jerry this afternoon. the show was just draggy. sighs. wasnt that good afterall. hehh. played pool and stuff. everything was fun. ((:

had absolutely no idea that was what you were planning to say to me. but. everything's alright now isnt it? and im glad i reminded you. ((:

its just so sad that i'll be going off for my camp tomorrow. hurr. oh wells. miss me alright? hahh.

bugged

2005-05-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

i shouldnt have bugged you to tell me what you were thinking of. but now im glad that you told me. looks like i cant get to sleep tonight too. (:

i wonder what's going to happen.

another weekend

2005-05-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

went out with seokhwee yesterday to look for our casual shoes. looks like we just wont give up. hahh. well. happened to see pak and kexin having lunch together. and i saw fiona xie once again. hahh.

combed through all the shops in town and came out empty-handed. sighs. the only thing i got was aching feet. hurr. then met up with jerry at j8. finally decided on the converse shoe. and i better not regret buying it. so. everybody says its nice alright? ((:

its been two whole weeks since i last went church. gosh i feel so bad. ): played badminton with cell group friends in the morning. the ultimate winner was. -drumrolls- me and huiping! ((: okay i admit that im just bored out of my wits. and we're having birthday celerations next sunday too. -grins-

alright. so we had choir meeting after church service. and following that we went cafe cartel for lunch. lunch treat from ms leona quek. thanks so much! (:

then went town to play pool with kia, junwei and jerry. managed to win kia and junwei even though i havent played in such a long while. so maybe it was all jerry's credit. but oh wells. feel quite happy about it too. hahh. (:

be yourself day

2005-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

it was be yourself day on friday. nobody in my class followed the retro theme. hmm. was a pretty slack day. went kbox with karleng, yizhen and huiqi. people who sang were pretty good. well. maybe except joseph and his linkin' park song. hurr. so sad that they didnt have any song that the few of us could sing to. ):

the paegent was cool. and 23/05's theme totally rocks. one look at muikoon and you know already. hahh. rebecca's got the same keychain as me! and yes. we have to go back for orange bowl soon. ahh i miss it soo much. hmm.

went queensway with seokhwee after school to look for casual shoes. shoes we liked were either too large (men's size), too small (kids' size), or simply out of stock. couldnt believe our luck. but at least i saw the converse one. hahh. think i drove seokhwee nuts talking about God. and quoted by seokhwee, we went home tired and empty-handed. oh wells.

last week of school

2005-05-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

long weekend passed. but i didnt even complete any of my tutorials. shucks. i've got to be back to the 'mugging' mode already. sighs. days were passing by quite quickly since its already the last week of the term.

had delta experience briefing on tuesday afternoon. morning pe on thursday was so crap. i mean, four people playing badminton for the entire pe lesson. since the others failed the physical test. sighs. went town with jerry after school to get some of the retro stuff for friday. (:

weekend

2005-05-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

finally met up with jane yesterday! gosh. its been quite long since i last saw her. becoming prettier already wor. tsktsk. went about town doing our shopping. ended not buying anything since i was soo broke to start with. hehh.

headed over to marina bay mrt to meet the 26/05 people for class steamboat. so much more people turned up for the gathering this time. yay! ((: and to derre. how could you abandon us for soccer? even the soccer freak came. bahh.

me and yingwei had something special planned for the night. hahh. and so we treated a few people to the steambost dinner. first of all. our dearest peijun. whom the class gathering cum farewell dinner was organised. and to seokhwee and xinyi. happy birthdays! think the three of them were pretty shocked. oh wells. that was our plan wasnt it? tsk.

it was fun hanging out with the guys again. and michelle was getting really hyped up too. all the rubbish she was uttering beside me the entire time. dont thaink i'll see that 'wild' side anytime soon. dehai was late. so late that i was already in muikoon's car and heading home when he arrived there. hmm.

anyways. thanks to muikoon for sending me home! havent crapped with you for quite some time already. and hope the birthday girl enjoyed her birthday with us! ((:

met up with peijun on sunday afternoon to shop for presents for the concert performers. took photos with the star war m&ms. they are absolutely adorable! hahh. then we met up with zhenyu, dehai and jiehau. had pasta for dinner again. headed over to the esplanade to meet with johnny and serkun. johnny looked soo cool! woohoo.

and yes. the entire concert was great. and i saw 20/04 friends. basically. all i wanted to say was. the weekend went really well. ((:

there're so many things that i miss soo much. but things are always never the same. are they?

gp common test

2005-05-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

"an education system's duty is to educate students to meet the needs of the country." comment.

that was the question i attempted for gp common test today. oh man. hope i dont screw up. =x

present shopping.

2005-05-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

met up with seokhwee after her co practice. went town to look for presents for class gathering next saturday. saw muikoon meeting this j2 guy. simply scandalous. tsk. oh wells. budget for presents was pretty okay since everyone chipped in. (:

we walked around town for so long because we cant find the perfect gift. and we had to try on things too. plus the hysterical laughter during the laming around. hahh. it was pretty much a good day.

cant wait to see peijun again! hope you can make it next saturday alright? i miss you! ((:

whats wrong.

2005-05-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

what's wrong with wanting soup?
why must you make me cry?

.

2005-05-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

settled on our dress themes. retro and gothic. people out there reading this. dont you dare copy our idea. unless 20/04 decided on retro too. then we'll retro together! (:

went home to get my guitar before returning school for practice. there was no auditions today. unlike what was claimed in the notice. no auditions. so no concert. ushering here i come! thanks to xipeng who wanted to help. but not much point in that too. oh wells.

class gathering postponed to next saturday. think more people might be able to make it.

and its going to be seokhwee's birthday that day. BIRTHDAY BASH! ((:

sarcastic ass.

2005-05-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

contact time in the morning was just so fun. was supposed to play games for morning pe. but had to do conditioning due to the stupid rain. sighs. my class getting quite scandalous already. hehh.

to michelle. take care alright? rest well before your matches! (:

and you're still just as irritating. ~~sarcastic ass.~~

draining away

2005-05-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

didnt go school today. guess i just wanted time to hibernate and recharge myself. its been so tiring going for tuition lessons every night since saturday. i feel myself draining away already. ):

didnt go for guitar auditions because i got the wrong information. argh. i can feel it starting all over again. even my dad feels it too. hmm.

read somewhere that some people out there are criticising about our giving tree. well. not exactly ours. theirs. but all i want to say is. try doing it on your own. its not going to be so easy. and the class spirit that goes into the tree. try it. even though im not in 20/04, im still going to stand by them all the way. they make things happen. (:

havent had such a strong urge to slap someone for quite awhile already. so. dont get me flared up.

pre-assessment

2005-05-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

had physics and chemistry pre-assessment. nothing much to be said about it i guess. had a whole bunch of work to do since ms koh wasnt around during gp tutorial. i'd rather she come for lesson. hehh.

maths test

2005-05-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

had maths common test. guess im going to flunk maths once again. bahh. many thought the paper was easy. guess i didnt study hard enough. ahh. i dont even want to think about it. ):

=x

2005-05-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

went tuition on saturday and sunday night. oh. im wasting another weekend away again. im going to be soo dead next week. =x

dehai's birthday

2005-05-07T11:53:00.000+08:00

only had two hours sleep before i went school yesterday. was drifting off during lessons already. think my gp tutor has got something against me. ): oh wells.

was supposed to celebrate dehai's birthday during common lunch. but birthday boy had to have lessons at that time. hmm. ended up doing all sorts of funny things outside his class. hehh. but PEIJUN came back! yay! so long never see her already.

and we finished the rest of the cake while dehai went off in his chocolate smudged face. went to disturb sister for quite awhile too. and i want to be an uncle soon! hahh. pak and zhenyu decided to play with fire. i was right beside it lahh. thank goodness my face didnt get any worse. hehh.

stayed back to help 20/04 for awhile. and now the tree has a new home! haha. teachers seem to be very proud of it. (:

and sorry to peijun. sorry never spend more time with you. we'll meet up soon alright? (:

went bugis junction with wenxun afterwards. sorry for complaining so much. hmm. and i seriously didnt know that she was the one. oops. haha. oh wells.

fell asleep soon after i got home. dad just complained how i could sleep for so long. he just dont know how much im lacking in my sleeping hours. hehh.

im feeling just like a grumpy old woman. grrr.

get the fuck out of my face.

2005-05-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

let the rain fall down and wake my dreams.

watched csi and alias on tuesday night. jennifer garner's soo pretty! hope this season would be better though. (:

forgot to check the notice board on tuesday. so didnt know there were guitar practice on wednesday. by the time school ended, i was too lazy to go home and get my guitar and come back already. hahh.

and there's audition for the upcoming concert. doubt will get in. learning other instruments seemed much more easier. hmm.

disappointments of the day.
had napfa test for the 5 items today. fell during my standing broad jump. zhenyu they all were around somemore lahh. grrr. missed my C grade by a cm. -pulls hair out-

might probably do it again next week with my classmates. since almost everyone of them planned to re-do the test. sighs.

got back physics test paper today. got a B grade. missed my A grade by just ONE mark. -starts pulling hair again- so irritating. oh wells. at least i didnt do too badly for both.

always look on the bright side of life.

hmm. someone pissed me off today. big time.

what right have you got to say that i dont care.? you dont even know me. so stop your bullshit. dont make a big fuss out of everything okay. it aint even that important. nobody is perfect. so stop complaining that im not doing anything. its totally none of your business.

you dont know what its like to be me. so just get the fuck out of my face. dont pretend like you know me. you wont. and you wont. life's too perfect for you. shall stop my ranting before i start to feel worse.

oh. its big bird's birthday today. happy birthday dehai! (:

and now for the syf results.
co-gold.
choir-gold with honours.
band-silver.

well done everyone. and hope the band wont be too upset with the silver. hmm.

psalm 121

2005-05-03T15:54:00.000+08:00

I lift up my eyes to the hills-
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip-
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over israel
will neither slumer nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you-
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon at night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm-
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

-psalm 121-

wrong bus

2005-05-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

went tuition tonight. took the bus from the wrong side. ended up only reaching home at 11pm. just finished watching end of days. not the first time watching again.

sighs. dont know why im blogging now. i must be feeling too bored already. despite the fact that i havent completed my work. hehh. oh wells. will do the government survey before i go to sleep.

im starting to get the holiday mood already. and thats so not a good sign. must work hard! just a few more weeks! co syf coming in less than 24 hours. all the best for those who are involved!

anyways. nights people. sweet dreams. ((:

zhanseng's birthday

2005-05-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

wasted my saturday away doing absolutely nothing. there wasnt anything particularly nice on tv. but i managed to complete some work! while watching species at the same time. stupid show. watched it like twice or thrice already. borrrring.

was late for choir again. oh wells. kia's sister boosted my morale today! wahahas. bible study lesson started again today. think it'll be more fun. though its so full of crap. oh wells. played a 'seaweed' game for today. hehh. no comments.

mother's day shopping.
went town with peishan afterwards to help her shop for her mom's present. was having leg cramps by the time i got home. that was how bad it was.

shall describe the route we took. takashimaya. centrepoint. og. tangs. og. centrepoint. then back to takashimaya. so smart right. was going to chop peishan up into tiny pieces already. sighs. another wasted AGAIN. shall see how tomorrow goes then.

and im watching the sphere on tv right now. another sci-fi show that i've watched twice or thrice already. cant ch5 ever show something more interesting? oh. but ice age was seriously cute. ((:

and before i forget. its zhanseng's birthday today. so just want to wish you a happy birthday yahh? smiles! (:

track and field meet

2005-04-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

napfa.
had our 2.4 test on yesterday. i was only aiming for a C grade lahh. didnt know that i was almost approaching a B grade. sighs. if only i ran like 8 seconds faster. then i could have gotten a B! ):

final timing was 15.08. not really very good also i guess.

and i didnt feel any better when someone laughed at me just cause i didnt get an A grade. like whatever.

but thanks to huishan yahh? you made me feel better already. ((:

then had the track and field meet in the afternoon. here are the results of the entire event!

nelson came in second in the 100m race.
wenjun came in first in the 4x100m and 4x400m.
20/04 guys came in second for 4x100m. and first for 4x400m. hope my figures are right. hahh.
29/05 guys came in second for 4x100m.
well done everyone! ((:

puma came in second! but panther came in last. oh wells.

and its peijun's last day in school today. im soo going to miss you. but hope all will be good for you yahh? -huggs-

yesterday was another boring day yet again. and i got back my chemistry test paper already. i got a B!
-sings and dance around-

am feeling dumb once again. hahh. guitar brought back a silver for syf. hope band does better though.

hmm. didnt get tickets for the aj idol finals. so ended up going home to slack. and i didnt go back for the st-nix sports day. ahh. cant believe im missing out on everything. ):

nevermind. long weekend ahead. something to look forward to! ((:

orange bowl!

2005-04-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

had physics and chemistry common test on monday. havent really studied ehh. i just want to pass it. hehh.

oh and another thing. happy birthday felicia! hope you like whatever the class gave you alright? im sure they gave you something nice! (:

and to that someone out there whose name i rather not mention. stop getting on my back. dont start saying sorry only when people tell you to stop it. its too late already.

was actually quite slack yesterday. physics practical ended a period early. mr lim didnt come for chemistry practical. had class debate on cows wearing bras during gp. lesson was fun for once. think ms koh was quite amused by our horny ideas. hehh. no afternoon pe somemore.

zhenyu dragged me to stay back with him to watch the track and field events. saiful almost scared the guys to death. hahh. and our guys are quite good. started off second last. and we came in second. not bad at all. well done!

and found out that the guys of twenty did well too! am so happy for you all! ((:

catholic high visit.
was so happy when huiqi told me that our class people were going st-nix. change of plans in the end. went to our brother school in the end. and nelson didnt even seem to know the locations of his old school ehh. hahh.

their canteen food was okay.
but i miss my ORANGE BOWL! ):

hmm. helped out with the technical stuff later on. only finished our job in the evening. wanted to go home to rest before napfa the next day. and i fell asleep as soon as i got home. hahh.

i dont want to cry anymore.

2005-04-25T02:02:00.000+08:00

stayed back after school for the class leader's meeting on friday. dont know why i was even needed there. you're already doing everything. why should i bother.

20/04 people stayed back to complete the tree outside pccg room. stayed back to helped them. been quite a while since i was back with them. having fun like the old times. and sorry to the people who were waiting for me.

and to a certain someone out there. it'll always be my fault okay. if that makes you happy. i dont want to talk about it. its been quite awhile since i felt like crying. and you made me feel like crying again. i dont want to cry anymore.

had guitar practice yesterday. and think xipeng's really good. hahh. grade four or something right? hmm. went shopping around town with peishan afterwards. crapped about lots of stuff again. hahh. saw fiona xie and chew chor meng in town too! fiona xie's really quite petite and pretty in person ehh. ((:

heard snco got a GOLD for syf too! am so happy for them. especially for mui. she must be so happy about it. think every performing arts group brought back a GOLD for st-nix. we are a GOLD school! ((:

i've only got one thing to say today. the church songs she chose were disgusting. hehh. and bible study resumes next week. with more people. we'll see how it goes.

The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
-psalm 34:7-

no more pw!

2005-04-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

freedom at last.
first taste of the pw freedom! mr yong was like quite shocked that i got a band one lahh. let me tell you my timetable for my future mondays. two lectures. four breaks. two tutorials. home sweet home! and no makeup pw lessons where i have to stay back after school already!

got back chemistry class assessment on tuesday. at least i passed. i so dont need to stay back with mr lim every tuesday. -grins-

afternoon pe was with mrs toh. and she made us run our 2.4 followed by more of her crazy circuit trainings.

2.4 timing was 16.30. i feel so slow. hehh.

no cca yesterday again! (:

voted for the council elects this morning. voted for my fellow vesta ogfs and kiente. and no. i didnt vote for our dear class rep. hehh. had 2.4 once again. timing improved by just a little.

16.05. still getting a D grade only. i want a gold this year!

went home to get court shoes for xinyi while waiting for peijun to end school. accompanied her all around amk. and even went ngee ann with her and her dad. kemmy's mum cancelled tuition that day too. so was feeling quite bored. hehh.

cant believe peijun's seriously going np already. oh wells. hope you adjust well to the poly life yahh? (:

release of pw results

2005-04-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

release of pw results.
the long awaited day has finally arrived! release of the pw results on friday! everyone was busy checking the results while i was stuck having lessons for the first four periods. sighs. but i got a BAND ONE! am soo happy. no more pw for me this year! ((:

waited for an hour with zhenyu for muikoon and peijun. went j8 with them for dinner. and brought back dinner for pak. had to shut pak up whenever he tried to talk. just so he could shove his dinner down. hehh. idol semi-finals werent too bad. xinyi was just too nervous. but it was well done! (:

aj dance came back with gold. with honours! shuhui and karleng's efforts paid off! and snsb came back with GOLD! like after fourteen years or something? gosh. am so proud of you people. SNSB DID IT! ((:

and a big birthday shout out to christopher! finally eighteen ehh. hope you didnt get birthday bashed too much. and we got to have our clique outing yahh? you lousy organizer! enjoy!

had our first guitar practice yesterday. and kent was right. its quite boring. hehh. got to stick with it anyhow. cant give up like what i did with band. ahh. i miss my french horn already. sighs.

stupid bible reading reading. no comments. and someone's still upset with me. i dont even want to bother with it anymore. ):

2005-04-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

had pw lessons once again on monday. make that three hours of it. spent the whole time doing nothing. seriously hope i dont have to go through with the entire process again. rather have the time off.

had lunch with peijun and zhiwei in our school canteen. was actually supposed to have it at nyp. but it started raining. and stop saying its my fault that it started raining okay. im not the rain god.

yenhao and zhenyu came after zhiwei left. and yenhao started looking through peijun's phone. found out peijun's deep dark secret. oops. cant believe you kept it from all of us! aww.

sorry that the guys are all bugging you to tell them more about that person. just ignore them alright? you know i cant stop them. =x

forgot to wish shuhui a happy birthday! happy birthday girl! hope you enjoy your eighteenth birthday! (:

tuesday.
only one thing to announce. happy birthday jingyuan! stupid black man. stop rejecting my testimonials. im not going to write anything for you already. bahhs.

guitar search.
am like one of the few who dont have cca practices yet. hahh. queued up for the aj idol semi-finals' tickets. must show our support for xinyi!

headed over to thomson plaza to look for a guitar. cant seem to find the one i want ehh. ended up shopping by myself. so pathetic right. hehh.

woke up today puking my guts out. went to the clinic for medicine and mc. dragged my dad out to get the guitar for saturday's practices. hehh. and had tuition at night. not exactly how i wanted to rest.

and its kent's birthday today! happy nineteenth birthday! hope the class gave you something nice!

seok's house

2005-04-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

met seok and muikoon after their co practice on saturday. waited outside school for them with the stinking pesticide in the air. hehh. peijun met us at causeway point afterwards. had pasta for lunch. and its the first time i actually finished the entire dish today!

headed over to seok's house after lunch. and her house is really big for a hdb flat. muikoon started acting funny on msn. using seok's name. think dehai was quite shocked for awhile ehh. ended up laughing like idiots in her room. and think seok's mum was quite blur after she intro-ed us to her. shujun. peijun. and meijun. hehh.

she's got like ALOT of songs in her desktop. drained my energy just looking through all those. ended up staying till about seven before i went home. quite happy though. (: muikoon should have let some off her smell stay on your bed lorr. hahh.

was finally on time for church on sunday. maybe cause i cabbed there. and i finally saw huiping after like so many weeks? haha. went lunch with her before going to the library to return my books. think im owing quite alot for library fines already. oops. =x

dont understand the reason for your hostility. dont think i did anything wrong. maybe you could tell me why. its happened twice already. there must be something wrong with me huh. its always just me. i'll learn to deal with myself then.

huishan's birthday

2005-04-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

guess its been quite long since i last ran. 8 rounds for morning pe yesterday was quite tiring already. ahh. i need to work harder! sighs. had our first gp tuorial too. and i must say something. i dont have a good impression of her.

she treats us like we're in primary school. she walks around the class the whole time. probably hoping to catch someone doing the wrong thing. she hates it that we go for toilet breaks. and she checks up on our time-tables. urgh. i want mrs tan back! ):

lessons ended early as per usual. and pak actually asked me to stay back and mug with them. which was like super unusual. ended up staying back with pak, zhenyu, yenhao, saiful and yongsen. some people were obviously not very welcomed. hahh.

friday is not a good day at all. four tutorials at one go. early in the morning. and its like all of our subjects.? brain drain. and for the two people taking clao in my class. they have SEVEN periods at one go. then the day ends for us. time-table's messed up i tell you. hahh.

some things happened this week. some NOT very good things. kept getting blamed by someone. only some of the closer friends know about it. but im not happy with it.

dont think you're more superior or anything. dont say anything just because i care to try. dont say anything if i stopped caring. if i stopped at trying to be the best i can do. its because you're putting me down.

pick yourself up when people say things to put you down.
sorry im just a little more cranky.

and before i forget. its huishan's birthday today!
hope you're not feeling so down anymore yahh.
you know i love you dont you? ((: